my daily recommended dose of sunshine
Im so touched by this forwarded message I received from my sis…let me share it with you (I presume my nagbabasa nga nito, hihihi):
HE is…
my self inflicted pain…
a preposterous diversion…
a momentary bliss…
my blame-worthy experience…
my posionous religion…
HE is…my annoyance
and yet
he remains to be…
my sole happiness… =s
(wala lang uber natouch ako nung message,in more ways than one I think I can relate…xit gumaganun ako?argk!)
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"sunshine makes me happy"…its what one of tees says…however I just can’t tolerate the heat. It would have been better if the brightness that sunshine exudes is bereft of that blistering heat…Im not a sweaty person…Im not used to the agony of sweat drops being presetn in several portion of my body that’s why I make it a point that I stay in the shade, that i always have an umbrella beside me and that during the hooooooot summery days I have an extra shirt. Some people may object with these measures, and i know a certain someone who finds that my methods are laborious, vain and self-absorbed. I dont care. This is my body and I have all the right in the world to do whatever I want to do with it.
Okay…moment over…enough…you made me wait…I guess that in a way that was just a piece of my shitty mind.
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Its somewhat like a parody that I find it hard to appreciate the down side of the sunshine…I guess I could relate this to the bigger things going on in my life…I tend to lavish myself with the positive things that whenever something negative would upset me I take it hard. Somebody told me that I tend to be overly indulgent towards pleasurable things, I only want the positive to come out of teverything I do, evrything I have…Maybe its bad..maybe its not…that somebody ought to know me better, for there are countless times I voluntarily get into things that would inflict pain…that would make me suffer…I tend to continue on things that I am so unsure of…
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tama na ang moments.nalimutan kong maari itong mabasa.hahahaha =)
what was that? a girl just tried to meddle with my CPU! how weird! wala atang dila and hitad hindi marunong magpaalam at hello, like Im big enuf not to be noticed! DUh-uh! hehe (5 mins.ago…can’t help not to react on that one…so weird kasi)
niweis, punta kaming gateway ng gwupmates ko later…hihi….may experiment kami…social psych experiment…sshhh…first time kong pupunta dun.hahaha
