janini’s lair

ma i share ko lang po sa ibang nilalang jan na unti unti ng napapatid ang pasensya ko dito sa isa kong subject. mas akma siguro kung pangalan na lang ng isang bansa ung course title kesa sa tile nya now, aba nmn kase mag wa-one month ng ito lang ang dinidiscuss, asan na ang sorrelation ng urbanization at human behavior in the Phil context? abababababa nmn…

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ang masaya ngayong araw na ito di ako uuwi sa amen..nyehhehehe..mejo kakahiya lang d2 sa tutuluigan namin…di kasi maxadong close. lalake pa. hassle lang tomorrow maaga pa kami. sana everything will be okay mamaya pag na interview na namin ung subject, haayy…

lumabas din ung totoo kaya pala ayaw nitong male memebr namin na sa cavite gumawa e nalalayuan sya.aba aba, majority kami ng grup na pumunta dito sa diliman at sya lang ang taga dito.. smells fishy.. =p

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ang hirap naman magresearch about my assignment on China’s health and sexuality. super xit lang. every meeting my assignment. hay!

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may party-party-han mode na nagaganap sa bahy ngayon at wala ako sayang ang fud! haay! trip lang ng mga classmates ng nay ko at mukha namang enjoy sila. haayy ulit. itinapat pa sa deth anniv. ni Ninoy. grabeness…

nihao!

nalalabuan ako d2..help…ineplore ko na tong friendster pero di makaya ng utak kong unawain kung pano maglalagay nung magandang background nito na meron ung ibang users…help ulit!natatanga lang…

hehehehe… seyl pa la ang mga mall chumorow.wahaw! =’s

my impatience is killing me.argh!

Yey! napasa ko din ung first draft ku nung tue, sana approved most of it lalo na ung sa population ko, Oh dear God pls! ^_^

ang kulet lang ng pwofyl ku here. hehehe

waaahhh…sabi ng tatay ko sumali daw ako dun sa swan program, how harsh!

ala na ko masabi, nag-ubos ako ng significant hours of my layf today sa wala…hahaha…sabi ko kasi recreation time ko to mula sa nakakapag-bagbag damdaming ‘hell wikend’ ko na nag extend til yesterday.nyaha!

ansaya nung tue, sobrang ngarag lang, tue-wed 1.5 hours lang tulog ku. waha… maraming salamat kay Jihan na blockmate ko, kay Ge na brod ko, kay R.A. na sis ko at kay Ralpf na friend ko for being our saviors last tue! Labshu ol! I reallly think that its laudable. Didn’t really believe that anyone would be so altruistic to us that day until you guys came. oshasha tama na…hehe an mushy na..hakhakhak…

hm…kailangan ko ng pera, andaming babayaran (grad pics, year book, mga utang, funds,etc.) at nais bilhin…(read: mga luho ngunit I’l be debilitated without them)…hmmm…what a dilemma!

Holla!

asteeg nalate pa ko sa 8:30 am na subject ko. ang weird taslaga…pag 7am hindi, pag 8:30 nale-late…hahahahaha

May nangyaring sooooooooo much fun sa akin kahapon. nagtungo sako sa brgy. Sampaloc4 ng Dasma.upang humingi ng copy ng stat nila sa population (the assumption is that all Brgys in the country must have the copy–its simply a requirement). ngunit dahil matino ang mga Brgy duon sa amin wala silang maipresent. ni hindi pa nga nila naoorganize ung list nila. Sa sobrang pagmamahal nila sa akin sinigawan at tina lakan lang naman ako ng nagmamaganada nilang secretary (who turned out as the Chairman’s wife). Ang katwiran niya, confidential daw iyon at hindi p\wede ipbasa sa kung cno2, ang masaya pa nyan inaatasan niya akong magconduct ng census ng buobg brgy dahil iyon daw ang kalalakaran at ginagawa ng NSo.

E anka naman ng teteng o1 napaka talino naman pala nitong kausap ko! Putek na yan o, ayaw pa akong bigyan ng chance na ipaliwang ang sarili ko at nagmamaganada siyang sumusigaw habang nakapameywang sa may pintuan ng brgy. Unang una ma’am—-nanggaling na po ako sa DILG ng Munisipyo at sa kanila na nanggaling na sa mga Brgy ko hahanapin ang naturang kopya, pang2, hello! are you insane? kaya nga public document e…public! for the public and since i am a member of this public I have all the right to view this document… pang3, borbor ka ba talaga o bulag!? nakikita mo bang I dont represent the NSO? I know what sampling is pero and definiton nya ng sampling tlaga namang makakapag patumbling sa stat prof ko, kamusta para sa kanya ang sampling e kunin ko lahat ng household duon.heloo! badtrip tlaga for life. I tried to be as composed as I could possibly can under the austere situation. Sinamahan pa ako ng nanay ko kahit na bumabagyo at may sinat sya tapos ganun lang mahihita namin! Bulok na sistema!dahil itinatago nila ang incompetence nila under the shroud of hostility ako ang mawerteng nilalang na naktanggap ng ‘biyaya’.

So sa ngayon eto at nagrarant lang ako… sana masulusyunan ko na itong dilemma ko,.naisip kong sa mga subdivixons na lang magconduct ng study and I hope na wag sila maging bitchy at soobrang strict sa mga undergrad researchers like me. Kasi I tried Windward hills subdivision kahapon pero bawal na daw dun dahil; nagrereklamo mga homeowners (aba ambagsik!). matitikman din nila ang pahirap na idinudulot nila sa mga mag-aaral ng bayan kapag sarili na niulang anak ang ginaganito… pfffffftttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ay makooolet na buhay! Im looking forward the day na hindi na kita maiisip…bastards.

21 relationship questions

1) Single, Taken, or Crushin?

—heart’s taken

2) Are you happy with it?

— NO.
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall
fast?

– YES!

4) have you ever had your heart broken?

— YES!
5) Do you believe that there are certain
circumstances where cheating is acceptable?

— its only acceptable to ludus lovers (they won’t even consider it cheating) … for the meaning of ludus pls. refer to Saxton, 1986 ^_^

6) Would you ever take someone back if they
cheated on you?

—yes…depending on the circumstances…if that someone asked for my forgiveness, swore never to do that again…AND, if I still love that someone

7) Have you talked about marriage with another
person?

— not sure…could have forgotten about it…bad memory…

Do you want children?

— maybe…

9) How many?

— Still undecided.

10) Would you consider adoption?

— YES.
11) If somebody liked you right now, what will you
say?

— thank you.

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?

— I don’t do it.

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you
are dating?

—what game? 0_o (im lost)

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?

— NO. Its not love at first sight, its called limirence.

15) Are you romantic?

—VERY.

16) Do you think that you can change someone?

—-In very minute ways, maybe.

17) If you could get married anywhere, where
would it be?

— Stone henge. sa gitna.

19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?

—sometimes, depende sa situation, stand ko at sa kausap ko.

20) Do you have feelings for someone right now?

—UHUH.

21) Do they know?

—indirectly, maybe, not really sure… boys could really be stupid at times.

ang init naman nitong net shop na napasukan ko o! kundangan lang at soooobrang bilis ng internet kaya may pambawi… hay!

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After a weekend’s absorption into thesisi writing, I temporarily emancipated myself from the gruels of the load. Tunay ngang makakagawa ka ng thesis in a week kapag kumpleto ang materials mo! Kaso di kumpleto materials ko…ahhehehe

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Ginawa akong bola ng munisipyo at brgy.hall namin dito sa dasma! mga putek na govt offices hindi map[agkatiwalaan! kapag pinainit pa nila ulo ko isusumbong ko na sila ke mayor, kapag si mayor dinedma ako sa imbestigador ako tutungo, kapag di pa din ako pinansin…pray na lang ako…hehehehe

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"I miss you terribly, I wish I knew you better before I committed that laps in judgement…It feels so unfair to experience this pain alone but I now realize that it was my own doing that forced me into such a situation…"   =’(

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nakakairita na  talaga! paulit ulit ung kanta ng frio dito sa shop! mga ten billion times na! ano baaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! ayan binago na, beer by itchyworms na! yey!

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anong konek ng title ko? pagnilayan mu. social psych to.

araw-araw may post ansaya talaga! hahahaha…

bukas ay magsisimula na ang pakikipag simbuyo ko sa tadhana dahil sisimulan ko na ang aking “5-day first thesis draft makin challenge…” Ahhehehehe

sa ngayon ay ginawa ko ang assignment ko sa subject ko ng 11:30am at ang masaklap nagpapalipas na ako ng gutom… di na din ako nakapag-breakfast… huhuhu

Sna maging masaya ang gabi ko mamaya… magpupuyat na naman ako dahil sa maraming bagay kahit na ako’y salat sa tulog (wish ko laaang). nawa ay matapos ko na itong first draft na to dahil gusto ko ng matulog…hakhakhak…

wlang panahooon magdrama, maxado akong nagpadala sa aking emoxon last weekend… I swore (and hope) not to repeat that feat again until I pass my first draft…hehehe

My singdakan mamaya sa ey-es ng peyups manila…hekhek

o my gosh, gotta end this…needs like eating, procrastination (?) and going to class are the major deterents of my thesis layp…

harahar

P.S. tinanong kami ng aming department chairperson kung ano ang mga problema namin ngayon at tahasan kong cnabi na pera at lalake…hahahahaha

Wow! two consecutive days na nakapag blog! Ansaya naman….

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Dito akong UP-D today for my thesis among many others…haaaayyyy…wala pa c marbie…

ang mahal talaga maging eschudent…ryt now on going pa ung pinapapafotox kong buk…ayun 200+ tapos may ipinapa wire bind pa ko…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!!!!!!!!

Funny thing is, kumuha lang ako ng pera sa wallet ng tatay ko kaninang umaga, tapos parang hindi sya aware kasi mejo anu xa…anu ba un, my hang-over…badtrip nga c nanay kanina kasi kamusta naman 3am na umuwi at inihatid lang ng mga kaibigan, tapos Wednesday pa today malamang may pasok sya…ganun ba nag nagtitipid?

Gwabe 2k kuryente namin…patay talaga ko dahil lagi akong naglalaptop lately…

Nagkasagutan pa kaming mag-ina kanina… (1) Pano cchin ba daw ako at hindi nag alarm ung celfone ko so nalate ang kapatid ko? (2) Cchin din ba ako at di ako nakapag research about my sister’s assignment (ke Nick Joaquin)…. (3) Cnabihan pa akong mayabang at walang utang na loob (dahil xa ang contact ko for my questionnaire’s pre-testing) …. Talagang nagalit kaya ako nun dahil unang-una cram to the nth power na ako sa thesis ko but they still hold me responsible for my sister’s acads! Kamusta naman un! naging grade 6 din ako at ang pagkakatanda ko (dahil walang kwenta ang kuya ko) lola ko ang nagaasikaso ng almusal ko at ako ang gumagawa ng mga project at assignmments ko!!! nGRRRRRRRRR!!

(Tapos ikakatwiran nila na iba ako—macpag eklavu… at ang kapaitd ko makaklimutin at tamd–it not a reason okay!!! People can change if they want to! And besides kanya2 kami ng buhay at problema why should I be held responsible for something that I don’t have any direct influence to… DUH!   >_<)

Hindi rin naman ako nangako na ako ung gagawa ng assignment nya dahil unanag una it is so evident how busy I am…kulang na lang tanggalin na ang mga corporeal requirements of existence namely eating, sleeping, taking a bath, etc.para mapagkaxa ko un humigit kumulang 5 days before pasahan nito…

Enuf about that…

So how’s ur day?

AHEheheheehehe… nakakabanas kapag sumasailalim ka sa isang pagsusuri lalo na ng mga taong di mo nmn winelcome sa buhay mo para gawin un…

hay.

From the bouts of ecstacy…Im now again at the depths of the torrents…

I cant help but feel sad… and its not even raining(*yet)… I feel like crying though I know its pointless and I know that it sound so illogical to do so…

No tears are welling up in my eyes… they say that the most painful crying fits are those that doesnt involve tears…

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Please sign the petition against the killing of activists and journalists… (need I elaborate why?)

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I don’t think I have to belabor myself on explaining my rants about my thesis… God knows how I dreaded the turn of each day as my deadline approaches…

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"There are three kinds of men you will meet: the ones you like but can’t/won’t return the favor, the one’s wholl drool over you but for some reason you just can’t seem to return the favor (",) and those that are oblivious to the existence of a godess-like creature like you…ahehehehe…"

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"I am a star and a slave at the same time." - Imelda Marcos

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My quiz didn’t go very well earlier…I am kinda dissapointed about it but I am more troubled by having to experience these things within me…

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Being rejected and neglected truly doesn’t make one’s life any easier… the worst couple ever to go hand in hand….