my layp as a clockwork orange
have you read that novel by Anthony something? I just cant seem to remember his surname, it sounds somehting like Burger or Burgess…I dont know…
In that novel people were analogous to an orange because of being organic (corporeal) and all just like the fleshy and juicy pulp while the clockwork pertains to humans being dehumanized and patterned after a clockwork…just think of how you as a citizen becomes embedded in norms, routine and mainstream social,political and cultural day to day ctivities.
During the last 2 days’ "vacation" due to the emminent prowess of Glenda I really thought of retreating to the primitive life and not going back to school.
But as I meddled my thesis and other academic affairs since Wednesday i though to myself that being in the game does not need any repogramming or desensitization from sluggishness…however, I can no longer deny that it really really is an ordeal to be back in this realm.
I hate myself for being forgetful, for being dependent and for being slow in doing so many things…
im afraid that the methodology part of my thesis wont come out as my adviser expects it to come out…
Im afraid that the nearing deadline of my first draftwill be like entering the holocaust era…
Im afraid of so many things because of this study…
But every waking hopurs of my life is a call of getting back to "reality" as I perceive it… (sighs….)
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Im looking for a research assitant, specifically my thesis assistant… there are so many things that needs t o be done.. Anyone who can withstand my eccentricities is welcomed… ^_^
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I could not think of anything to say here anymore so i think that i gottsa leave this joint and pass my supah dupah late assignment… (It was one of my mishaps, because I haven’t thought of making a paper out of that reading assignment since for almost four years now, papers from reading assignments have been quite a norm in this place)…
I really wish that i wouldn’t be late in my appointment later with my high school friends…I do hope they will forgive me…
I also hope to spend tonoght’s evening beautifully even if Im broke and even if there are tons of things that needs to be done…
Hey! u cant blame a girl for taking a breather!? ^_^
