janini’s lair

hahahahahahaha!

It truly was amazing! I was so ngarag na earlier, i slept for only 3 hours to finish my take home exams on BS 121… tapos pagtining ko sa clock hala 10:30 na! e ang sabi ni ma’am, noon ang deadline, maiyak iyak na ko sa kaba kung anu mangyayari sa kin and then I remembered..may mga kaibigan pala ako (harharhar) I remembered a friend/blockm8 suggested that if i cant mit my deadline just because of distance related factors (takes 2 hrs to get to school from my abode), I cud email it to her and then she cud print it our for me and pass it…

auyn nagtxt brigade ako sa mga pinagpalang tao ng buhay at may natunton akong isang anghel…yup anghel talaga sya (prinomote ko na ang aking ayuey).

para kay Mr. basinang, maraming pasasalamat…wag kang mag-alala at tintatanaw ko itong 1 malaking utang-na-loob and I will surely return the favor given the opprtunity…hekhehk…problem solved! Yipppeeee!

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The dilemma now bounces back to that speech…Im procrastinating here because Im not sure whether to do it right now…I have my proxy (sister) but I really am being bothered by my conscience. Lets see what will happen when I get home after posting this blog… ^_^’

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Sometimes u have to lie in order to satiate urself…in order to keep ur world from falling down and in order to make sure no little cracks will show up from ur already shattered world…

Forgive for doing so, but reasons are more complicated to divulge than to do what ive done…hope that in the near future I cud tell u what really transpired and that we cud both laugh at the matter with leniency…

However, as of the moment I must ensure that my healing process will b over…I know that it will take time and trust me Im working on it on my own…

I just wanna make sure that when i am ready to tell you, I will be assured of your honesty, open mindedness and the promise of confidentiality…

Its better this way…yet I wanna tell u that u read me like an open book when nobody else in this world did…I am transparent I know, im just wondrin if u have the patience to allow me to incubate my thoughts and emotions…

Im really adrift as to how you’ve read me it seems so careless for me to be like that…I though no one else cud…hahahaha…Im ranting here…this will not make sense and Im not going to disclose further details verbally after posting this xet…

’nuff said!

^_^

so excruciating! but Im still procrastinating as always…still the same lazy, lousy me…

unlike the other students/ courses in school,

we have two take home exams and that’s it for our 2nd sem/3rd year…

however, a situation occured and somehow I am expected to make a speech for a graduation somewhere gere…(no further details)…

Its kinda nereve-racking that our exams turned out to be one of a hell kind of material…this will invade your sytem till ur brain cells are drained and dying…

arrrgggggghhhhhh… nah… Im just exaggerating…

but its really mind blowing once u’ve read it…

It seems to be a common knowledge that students are supposed to rejoice if their exams are mwean to be taken home–to be passed onm a certain date..not in U.P.

’nuff said ^_^

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whatever happened to my enthusiasm about the blue skies, the sun-shiny days of summer, the clouds afloat merrily basking under the sun and the thought that I am suposed to enjoy the event…

However, being weird as I am…I felt a tinge of melancholy yesterday (and even today) for reasons I myself cannot name. Maybe its the feeling that the classes were over, and I have less reasons to see my friends or maybe because I can smell the scent (?) of the  practicum about to happen…

anyways, I just cannot name it…

^_^’

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Kahapon ung raffle ng shuffle raffle ng BSETSOC, needless to say I did not win… I think its already given that I should nopt keep my hopes up since the probability that I would win was 285/7000… wow (!)

whew! two weeks of toxicity after two weeks of procrastination..

I think my group deserve a slap for procrastinating but I also believe that we deserve some warm hugs anfd hoorah for what we’ve accomplished in 5 days. Simply it was like 2 baby theses done in 5 days..(laughs, breaks and landian included)..

whew tlg!

for last week papers and ang dakilang exhibit ung inaatupag namen..

dun kami kina elma bien nagspend ng 5 days..it was like a mini-tanauan experience both in physical, emotional and mental aspects. Un ung tipo ng luger na nung umuwi kami ng Monday night…parang nagbakasyon lang kami sa Tagaytay sa dami ng dala..hehehe

Acknowldgements to Marbie’s family for all the support, accomodation and resources they yielded to us.

Thak yous to our families, to our friends who continued to support us along the way..

Maraming pasasalamat sa aking mga blockmates sa UP Manila at sa aming mga professor na nagbigay ng extensions…

At higit sa lahat..kay GOD…dahil he gave us strength, guiodance and wisdome especioally in those times wherein 4 hours lang lagi ang pahinga namin…hehehehe

P.S.> DUn din pala sa mga txtmates namin who kept us from getting bored and absorbed in the melancholy of our lives…xet, ang drama…

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May maganda akong experience dito.,.. nasugatana ko sa braso at nagdugo…nasaktan ako oo… na-upset dahil dagdag pasanin sa aking balat dahil alam kong mag iiwan ito ng pangit na pilat..at nagdugo pa…isa pa hindi pa man lubusang gumgagling ang allerggies ko mula Tanauan…eto na naman…haaaayyy….

Nasaktan din ako lalo ng ma-exacerbnate ito ng mgatao2 sa paligid…

ito lang, one time lang… sometimes people get crazier than the usual..its called mood swings but please do not make the mistake that its the p[eolple around them who’s always responsible for the reason they’re crying…sometimes itssomething internal, deep rooted and unspeakable…pls. do not exacerbate the situation by giving opinions within their earshot because you are not aware of how upset they are as of that moment and/or if they are in a very fragile mood…

un lang…

hindi ako drama queen..

Im just asking for respect…because as far as I can remeber, Im doing my very best in respecting other people’s feelings…so…un…

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hayyy…kapagod…

my report ako for tom pero wala pa kong naaral for that

may xhibit kami tom pero wala pang naccmulan maliban sa mga lupang binungkal namin sa bakuran nila JC kanina sa may UP-D

dapat ay nasa school na kim tom ng 5:30 am to prepare for our xhibit

kailangan kong imeet ang aking prof for a discourse about practicum

napunta ako sa practicum na hindi ko gusto, walang choice, walang kalayaan

wala pa kaming video which needs to be passed on Friday

a mini-thesis chorva needs to be presented and passed on monday about our fieldwork in Aurora Elem. School

papers needs to be passed nextweek about our entire fieldwork in Tanauan last Feb.

what a life! alam ko nag procrastinate kami ng groupmates koh..pouta lang!

bakit ganito… wow…cguro wrong combi kami ksi lahat kami mahilig magprocrastinate..hekhek ^_^

So help me God…

I slept at 2:30 am this morning trying to finish my report yet when I came to class today I found out that there were added topics I should discuss! (it just appears like my efforts were wasted… (sigh)…

Kamusta nmn sa report ko,gender and sexuality ung umbrella..so ung napunta sa akin e bisexuality, transgender, transsexuals…aun ang gulo lang…tamang definition sa wikipedia…tas till now d pa rin ako orayt sa mga nahanap ko..

san k b nmn kc mkakahanap ng practices at sexual behavior ng mga ito?

pag itinatype ko un lumalabas lang ung mga sex toys at websites para sa kung anu ano like sadomasochists organizations…nanghihikayat ng mga miyembro…

haaayyy…

badtrip talaga tong smart

maikwento ko lang na ang s2pid ng service nila to the nth power!!!! (grrrr!!!!)

I will leave no further details…

tas aun…

syn off na muna

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