for those who are still interested about what’s going on with my “life”
melancholic ang dating noh?
yup naaasar kc ako today, ibang level ng asar ito, un bang tipo na alam mong wala ka talagang laban sa mga pipol? un ganun na nga, for one, nalipasan na ako ng gutom dito sa pagtatype ko, may assignment pa kong dapat na inuuna kaso biglaang may inpinapagawa sa org. e aun… para dun sa mga nakakakilala sa akin, alam niyo na un…
ang toxic talaga, I got tons of fuckin’ deadlines to meet in two weeks time but wala pa kong nasisimulan ni-1 no kidding!!!! that’s y sobrang amazed ako sa mga klasm8 ko na nasimulan na or natapos na ung mga deadlines namin gdahil Im sure I couldnt afford to sacrifice several things like tv or sleeping … dahil , ewan,, , kahit sabihin pa ng ibang tao na nasa sa kin din un… hindi rin noh! Ive read this certain book where I learned that I must allow myself to be a little crazier from time to time and to ask myself the question: "am I happy?". Because as Karen Horney proposed, conflict arises out of the incongruence between the ideal and the real self, I guess I just dont wanna end up like others whose superego ruled themselves or at least, have had internalized their parents’ wishes. So that they think they’re doing what they really want when in fact hindi nmn pla, superego lang pla nila un (yeah , I have a (particular person in mind ryt now).
What the heck, ang dami kong sinasabi baka d mo rin to nagegets dahil sa difference natin sa phenomenal world… aun, gudlak tlg sa akin dahil na-qualify ako together with anne sa quiz bee ng course namin (!). u myt say kaya ko yun dahil all about my course un, kso … basta… gudlak na lang…
