janini’s lair

ini-edit ko po ngaun ang aking questionnaires sa psych 162, Parental Values in Male Child Rearing ang topic ko.

Sana po ay suportahan nyo ako in case na kailanganin ko ng mga respondents. Actually, kailangan ko na nga for pre-testing bale 10 mothers and 10 fathers na may anak na lalaki ages 2 - 12 (preferably). Sana po ay may mai-suggest kau sa akin. Baka po kayo na mismo ay isang lalaki or may kapatid na lalaki. D nmn kailangan na married or living tog. ung parents. Basta tao at may anak na lalaki okie na… plzzzzzzzzzz po!

yehey! pls contact me 09193997159 in case, maawa na kau, promise pag kau nangailangan ng help I will do whatever I can to return the favor din! ^_^

Minsan lang to kaya walang kokontra, Im not at ease about disclosing my feelings (about love life ha) in public e mejo nakakaasiwa… kung mga ibang bagay lang yan ok lng, anyway I dont think ganun n kabigat yung issue at hand. Its just that an hour ago reality has finally hit me, I tired to deny it but I just couldn’t hide it.

hala akalain mo nung una napaka frequent ng mga dreams ko na kasama siya (I will not go into details na lang para my air of mystery)

Tapos biglang bigla gusto ko lagi pag nanjan siya, and then kanikanina lang nagbrighten ang otherwise sullen mood ko(due to the katoxican of the planet).

And y o y!!!, tumutugtog na nmn ang especially for u ng MYMP, wag po! Its the 3rd time ng marinig ko yan! Kanina pa nga hina hum ko yan tapos na LSS ata (last song syndrome) aun kinanta nya, tigilan nyo po ako. This cant be a sign I must regain control of myself again. I am at the losing end because ther’ll be no future 4 us!!!!

As in wala tlg dahil may iba ng apple of the eye ang nilalang na ito, at kabatian ko rin xa. Phamak tlg, pero bat ganun parang kahit san naririnig ko boses nya (bk hallucinogens lang) and dahil isa akong napaka transparent at gullible na nilalang kahit na ayoko, it shows, na happy ako kahit na ilang moments lang un…

Ayoko, ano bang effective ng pang renda sa sarili??

Ayoko kc tlg nung ako ung may gusto tapos yung gusto ko either wala lang ako sa kanila or my iba ng gusto e.

S.O.S.!!!!!

guess where I am right now! At this time of the morning! well Ive been here since 10;50 pm pa ginagawa ko ung items ko for psych 162, kaswerte swertehang buhay nmn tlg. Khpon ko pa 2 cnimulan kttpos ko lang!!!!!

Fuck trip tlg! Anne’s right U.P. kills!!!!

nkakaiyak na ang ka toxican sa buhay kung pwd lng wag ng pumasok tom kso 12 lng kmi sa clas kya it’ll b so evident kpg wla n nmn ako.What’s so great is that may interview pa kmi ni Jc sa psych 171 tom goodness, kming 2 lang, tpos 2 pm pa! e 10am tapos nung class ko! san ako mgtutungo para makatulog!

d ko akalaing mararanasan ko ito!tapos 7am pa ung klas! ay goodluck nmn tlg db!

At d ko p ata nasasabi! wla ako sa dasma, nasa Vito, actually knina pa ko gutom tinitiis ko lang! pesteng Newman and Newman, etc (mga authors ko sa items) naku naku naku…

Sna ay mbait na nilalang na mki simpatiya sa akin…

huhuhu….

ay naku, may report kami tom sa psych 162,7am pero dahil pasaway ako now pa lang ako nagpprepare….wahahaha!

ang gulo talaga ng sistemang politikal sa bansa pewro parang mas magulo ako kasi d ko tlaga ma-assertain kung ano talaga gusto ko mangyari sa buhay ko… akalain mo tingin pla ng mga pipol sa akin e warfreak, o.c. at maraming napapansin… akalain mo un!

cguro ung last 2 totoo pero ewan ko lang dun sa una….

Im now here in vito cruz,

sana makakita na ako ng right dorm for me und d aangal mga parents ko…hassle kc, toxic na… I barely passed my exams…naga-fatigue pa ako 2 weeks ago…

help!

there are some things in life that you are forced to do even if you do not want to do them in the first place…

things like eating when you don’t have the time or the money when you have to, going to school, reviewing for exams, doing assignments, attending symposias or meetings…things of that sort…but above such things, what I really disdain are the rules imposed upon me.I know, I cant excape this realm where rules have to be followed to avoid disorder, but dont you wish sometimes that even once in your life you can do everything and anything you like without worrying about the future or about the consequences or about what other people would think???

dont you just loathe it when you have to wake up so early after sleeping meagerly? dont you just wish you can freeze time at its best?

sadly we have to face reality everyday, we have to ‘live’ under such gruelling circumstances imbedded in norms we cant change…

what’s worseis that even after I type this entry I have to return to reality, pay my bills for renting this pc, review for an upcoming exam, prepare my assignment and other school stuffs. Aside from this I have to live in a world of chaos where almost everything follows the idea of triage, where everything seems so expendable…

gone were the times when I nestled in the smug softness of unconsciousness with the things Iaround me, when the most pressing concern I contemplated where the shows I missed or how my mom seemed not to love me, or when my friends ignored me…

now more and more things seem to add to my burden that the thought of an unidentified escape seems perpetually omnipresent…

I only spent a meager amount of time for sleeping, last night that’s y im feeling awwwfff!!!!

exams in psych 162, worst thing was the lack of sufficient tym for reviewing and sleeping because nag-co-commute ako nowadays…

AAAARRRRGHHH TALAGA!!!!

tapos d rin nmn mataas makukuha ko dun sa paksyet na exam, I missed one question! pno ang weird tlg pero d q na-grasp ung tanong ng maayos!!!

and now, my promise p q n manonood ng cne w. my friend ky d p q mkk2log…

UP’s killing me softly…