janini’s lair

"Your values are reflected by your choices and your choices reflect your values"

I know it sounds circular but that’s what’s happening to me right now, Ive got tons of deadlines to meet but again I choose to sulk here thinking about the past mistakes (the last three days were supposed to be the days wherein I would have accomplished half of my to-do’s). I should have read my readings, accomplished my paper in psych 162, read the books I borrowed from UP-D (which are all due on June 29!!!!!). And things of that kind which up to now I can’t still begin with anything !!! ARRRRGHHHH!!!!! feels like somebody’s cursing me, putting a spell on me so that I cant fulfill my tasks… or atleast my body’s already tired to follow my brain after 14 yrs of studying…..

HELP ME!!!

I started my day feeling so anxious about being always late in my TF class, fortunately today our professor didn’t actually taught us because sumting came up. Anyways, I went to my class. worked with my groupmates, ate lunch with Febbie, bought certain requirements for the OCS and poof there I was again contemplating about my stupidity because I forgot to have the officer in charge (where I was the S.A. for 2 mos) to sign the appropriate documents for me to receive my salary.

It was just a meager amount that’s why Im feeling a bit off about having to return again to the office when in the first place; I already recomended two other students (Febbie’s blockmates) to fill the positions me and my classmate once occupied.

Right now Im still procrastinating the other requirements Im suppose to do in order for me to be able to renew my application in BESTSOC (the org. in w/c I belong).

In contrast to the other days where I worry a lot because of tasks I wasn’t able to accomplish…I think Im a littlt proud of myself today. Because for the first time I was able to get hold of myself to resist the temptation to watch a movie instead of fulfilling my "to-do’s".

^_^

being a 3rd yr behsci student in up is indeed hard! I can no longer afford to enjoy any momentary bliss I used to experience when I was a sophomore. TV, movies, etc. I really need a break from all of these things…

As of now, I silently curse myself for being forgetful. Im now in a computer shop trying to create powerpoint presentation for my report in socio 153…unfortunately I left my materials at home!!!

What a total havoc!